Some days I feel so alone.
Like all I am is complaints, symptoms, fear, worry, pestering, wasting away.
If it's not one thing it's another with me.
I try to make them stop. I make promises to my love that it'll all be normal once this symptom or that pain goes away.
But it never ever never does.
It's always something.
Somethng that's not me.
So where the hell is me? Where am I?
Besides so totally alone?
Update: Honey got home from work and of course we talked, shed some tears and he put me back together again. He has a way of doing that. 'In sickness and in health,' he reminded me. And we made plans for me to go hang out with him at the office after my appointment tomorrow. Then we can come home together from there. I don't do it often but when I do it's always nice to watch him at work and I don't get in his way (mostly). :)
This is a blog about us Honeys. We've been married for 6 years, live in Littleton, CO, have a Chihuahua named Dobby, a Rat Terrier named Scarlett, three awesome cats (all referred to as our Furry Kids!) and some fish.
In November 2007 I was diagnosed with Cholangiocarcinoma (bile duct cancer of the liver) and nave been undergoing chemotherapy since December '07 & Proton Radiation Therapy at M.D. Anderson in Houston, TX from December '08 - February '09, and then back on eternal chemo until we get the tumor to shrink away from one salvageable vein in the liver so that it can be surgically removed. We use this blog to keep family and friends updated on our struggles, loves, challenges, celebrations, goals, ideas and the general daily grind!
In November 2007 I was diagnosed with Cholangiocarcinoma (bile duct cancer of the liver) and nave been undergoing chemotherapy since December '07 & Proton Radiation Therapy at M.D. Anderson in Houston, TX from December '08 - February '09, and then back on eternal chemo until we get the tumor to shrink away from one salvageable vein in the liver so that it can be surgically removed. We use this blog to keep family and friends updated on our struggles, loves, challenges, celebrations, goals, ideas and the general daily grind!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Some Days
Posted by Garnet at 3:36 PM
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You two are so blessed to have each other. I love you, Aunt Marti
Abbey, I could not be alone when I was going thru it all. People had to come "babysit" me. I went with Scott to soccer practice, to his office, on errands, anywhere! I didn't know what was wrong with me. Friends came by to just be with me. I was a wreck. I was hysterical at times. It WILL be normal again, Abbey. YOU will be normal again. It will take time, but it will come. If I lived close to you, I'd come over all the time. You'd be sick of me! YOU are still there, Abbey. You are just on hold for the moment. GO GREEN!!!!
Love,
Betsy
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