Boy, it's super fun taking these neupagen shots and making myself so sick I can hardly move. I have swollen and sore glands in places I never knew existed! I can't keep my eyes open I'm so tired. My throat is sore and my head aches. I know I sound like Little Peggy Ann McKay from Shel Silverstein's poem 'Sick' but in my case it's true. And it's really interfering with my preparations for Jane's arrival and my surgery.
I usually wait one more full day before taking the shots but because my surgery is mid day on Wednesday, Nurse Gari thought it'd be a good idea to start them a day and a half sooner so that my WBC aren't too high to have the procedure done. Go figure. So I got up today full of plans and to do lists but then Honey reminded me to take my shot this morning. Okie doke. Good idea. But that plan backfired because by the time we were headed home from my dad's with the queen sized bed he gave us, I could feel the Mac truck begining to run me over. And now it's several hours later and I feel several times worse.
Okay so you get the point, I'm sick and for some reason I have to make myself sick in order to get better. Fine. No more complaining on that note.
But see we only have three days until Jane arrives and my house isn't even ready yet. The cleaning ladies are coming tomorrow (I put them off a few days just for this purpose) and now Honey has to spend the evening cleaning off the surfaces required for them to clean. You know the whole, "clean the house before the cleaning ladies get here" deal? That's the one. All I can do is lie here and watch.
Naturally, I've drastically scaled down my to do list for the next two days and Honey keeps reminding me that it's not the end of the world if we don't get it all done in time. I know he's right. But Jane is so kind to drive all this way to help me out for two weeks, I want her to feel comfortable and happy in our home, not crowded out with the piles of stuff.
I do need to go buy some new bedding for the queen bed tomorrow. And maybe a couple of new towels for the guest bathroom. I'll do that after the cleaning ladies leave and as much as I want to check out Linens and Things' going out of business sale, I'm afriad I'm too late to find complete sets of things, ya know? So I may only visit Kohls since they always seem to be having the lowest prices of the season every single day ... and most of you know how frugal I am! I have no bedding for a queen or full bed (and I'm really not convinced that this is a queen...I've got mesurements now). And what dad had to offer was only 12 years old and thread-bare. And besides, it was all sorts of shades of blue and my room is purple. Duhh. I'm allowed to be a little picky.
The bedding and finishing setting up her room and finishing laundry is pretty much all I've settled on doing between now and Tuesday evening. Forget the piles of crap on the coffee table in the front room, and the stacks of books that still need to be put away in their proper places on the shelves (I did mostly clean up the bookshelf area yesterday!), and the other general purging of junk that's just taking up space. So that's the way we live. I'm sure she'll understand. In fact, I think she'd be mad if she knew how much (but it feels little to me!) trouble we've already gone to for her visit. What can I say...I've been trained this way by my mother and I'm still learning to LET IT GO. ShrinkyDink told me not to micromanage everything while Jane's here. Just let things flow. Easier said than done but I'm willing to give it a strong shot!
It's gotten quite cold here in the evenings and nights over the past couple of weeks. My garden is shot now. We have such a short growing season here in Colorado, which I only just learned, this being my first year of gardening. If I had planted my squashes, peppers and tomato plants earlier in the spring, maybe we'd be enjoying them more now instead of watching them rot out there in the rocks. I don't know what the rules are for "shutting down" a garden for the winter. I know about roses and I have yet to get out there and prep them for the dormant season. See...I'm way behind everything!
No we didn't make it to the museum yesterday. I was too tired from Friday's chemo to go. And by the time I felt up and more energized, the time for our IMAX tickets had already come and gone. I did try to give them away to many friends and even back to the foundation that got them for me but no one was able to. At least I tried.
That's about all the energy I've got this evening. Now it's time to lie back down for a while.
Please comment to me here and tell me what you did this weekend! I'd love to hear about it!
This is a blog about us Honeys. We've been married for 6 years, live in Littleton, CO, have a Chihuahua named Dobby, a Rat Terrier named Scarlett, three awesome cats (all referred to as our Furry Kids!) and some fish.
In November 2007 I was diagnosed with Cholangiocarcinoma (bile duct cancer of the liver) and nave been undergoing chemotherapy since December '07 & Proton Radiation Therapy at M.D. Anderson in Houston, TX from December '08 - February '09, and then back on eternal chemo until we get the tumor to shrink away from one salvageable vein in the liver so that it can be surgically removed. We use this blog to keep family and friends updated on our struggles, loves, challenges, celebrations, goals, ideas and the general daily grind!
In November 2007 I was diagnosed with Cholangiocarcinoma (bile duct cancer of the liver) and nave been undergoing chemotherapy since December '07 & Proton Radiation Therapy at M.D. Anderson in Houston, TX from December '08 - February '09, and then back on eternal chemo until we get the tumor to shrink away from one salvageable vein in the liver so that it can be surgically removed. We use this blog to keep family and friends updated on our struggles, loves, challenges, celebrations, goals, ideas and the general daily grind!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Preparedness
Posted by Garnet at 6:26 PM
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this weekend i attempted to put back together a show that went all wonky while i was gone. i remember dad always telling me that if your work can't survive without you for a week something is wrong... well i learned that things are a little wrong but maybe that's my opinion and really things went fine. i'm not totally excited about the show we're currently doing... usually when we do a musical i'm all about listening to the soundtrack and learning it but had to force myself to listen to it at the barn this morning. i think i'm on the wedding over low that they say hits most woman after their wedding. now it's just time to clean it all up. my house probably looks like yours with piles everywhere... mostly piles of wedding gifts and wedding left overness that need to be put away. i think i could have used the whole weekend in vegas... i feel kindof rushed and out of it. john has a cold although i think it's the pollution outside... it's gross out there. i did get a small fountain for a wedding gift. john put it together this weekend and put it down low for the kitties... they are very happy. i have a cinnamon apple bagel with almond honey cream cheese for lunch... that's good. i'm paying bills and putting my life back together... i'm going to try at least... maybe not all today. lindsay
p.s. i have a queen bed and therefore have TONS of queen size pretty sheets if you would like to use them... let me know. i sent you an email about wednesday... let me know what i can do.
First of all, I just have to state (for the record, ya know) that I totally recognized Shel's writing before you pointed it out, and it wasn't the image that gave it away either. Cute. You're so fun.
Now, here's the deal: Your wonderful friend is coming all this way to HELP you. HELLO! Wake up long enough to understand that all these tasks and to-dos are things that you can totally task HER with! Worried about the sheets? Seriously - she's there to take tender loving care of you, darling. Because you're sick. I know you don't like to think of yourself as sick... but you're not well, hon! TAKE IT EASY! Let your angels do their jobs.
Whew. sorry. It's just that if I had the chance to come out there and take care of you or help you take care of yourself, or however you wanna look at it... I'd beat you up sideways if you thought you had to take care of ME or something crazy like that!?! The cleaning ladies? Won't they just clean around your stuff? Who cares if they miss a spot! Really!! There are much more important things to worry about... like YOU.
I wish I knew how to make you pamper yourself. Do I send you a pedicure kit? A gift card to amazon dot com? Purty fabric thats calling for you to turn it into something purtier? Some bubbles for a bath??
I know your sick of being sick. But you are so smart for preparing for wednesday's FIGHT ahead of time. Don't forget about preparing YOU and letting the rest GO! Who cares if you there's a dust bunny over there? Seriously woman, go rest!!!
I wuv you dearly and I'll shut up now... and while I'm at it, I'll apologize in advance. Maybe I should have sent this as a private email? but, I know your family and friends are with me on this - take care of yourself first! HUGGS
Oh, and we didn't do one thing interesting this weekend. Well, unless you count lounging around The Legends. Rebecca was this close --><-- to getting a new pair of converse :)
My weekend was laid back. This is the first time in about 6 years that I did NOT go to the annual Witches' Ball. Seems kind of strange. Instead, I hung out at home and worked on making jewelry and taking pictures and getting stuff ready to open my etsy store. I'm gonna give it a try.
We also watched "My Cousin Vinny"-- so totally 80's! I had to laugh at the clothes. At one point David asked me "What IS she wearing?" and I replied, "Honey, its a floral print catsuit with a keyhole back. DUH!What else would it be?"
In your post, you sound like I do when I'm feeling things are out of control-- I take control of every little detail that I *can* control, to try and feel better. I hope that this time through, its not as bad as last time-- I mean, I know it's not going to be a cake walk for you, but at least this time you know what to expect physically, so maybe it won't *feel* quite as bad as last time. So you can let yourself be taken care of while the treatment KICKS SOME ASS.
I have been thinking of you in my evening devotions, and I will be sending some extra hugs and good vibes your way.
This weekend, the allergies that I've had for the last week finally ended. I can once again go outside without sneezing. Also, my mind finally came completely back to normal, after a few days of confusion and memory loss, following the temporal lobe seizure I had a week ago. It was the first one of those I'd had in quite a few months.
So, I actually had some energy to get things done...
I used the leaf blower to blow all the leaves onto the lawn, and then sucked up 15 bags of them with the lawnmower, and dumped them on the compost pile. I dumped the dead potted flowers onto the pile, too, along with a bunch of other dead flowers from the gardens. Then, I watered the compost pile, since it's too dry here for anything to rot naturally.
The sunflower stalks are too big to rot in the compost, so I've been chopping them up and stuffing them in trash barrels for the last month. I finally filled the 8th & final barrel this weekend.
I climbed up on the roof and cleaned out the gutters. I replaced the furnace filter and put the window panels back in the screen door. I got the gas fireplace all ready to go again, and then moved the living room furniture back to the winter arrangement. I did three loads of laundry, and then took the doorknobs apart to clean and lubricate them.
Mostly, though, I cooked and ate a lot... Saturday brunch was homemade coffee cake, homemade hashbrown patties, and fried eggs. For saturday dinner, I made chicken fried chicken with mashed potatoes and gravy, with baked beans on the side, and a chocolate layer cake for dessert. And, yesterday, I made potato pancakes for breakfast and then cooked a pork roast in the crock pot, served with potatoes, carrots, onion, and homemade gravy.
Jim
Ok - i REALLY have to agree with Maggie here. Who cares about the stacks! who cares about the sheets! Point is - she cares about YOU and loves YOU and wants to take care of YOU (see a theme?). I dont think anyone would ask you (or WANT you) to worry about the piles or cleaners or sheets :)
If you (or Jane or Mr Honey) need anything - you just let me know!
As far as my weekend - i FINISHED MOVING!!! YAY!!!!!!! now talk about stacks and messes - thats MY house - lots of boxes and stack and yikes! too much to know what is where and where to find anything! but i'm MOVED! Huge major stress - which just makes me eat the darn halloween candy - but its almost over!
I went to the Molly Brown tour of terror (or something like that) = was a bit different and kind of fun. They read different literary scary passages in different rooms throughout the house - and what a house! was pretty fun altho wanted to go to a haunted house :)
Then yesterday we took family photos. Oddly enough it was my ex-sister in law who took them - so could be a bit awkward but i'm anxious to see the pictures of all of us. Did i tell you i was an aunt again (6 weeks now :) so she wasn't so cooperative with the photographs - but she has a good set of lungs on her i can say!
Okie - todaloo - Love ya!!
Linds: I wanted to extend your trip over the weekend but I knew you were needed at the theater, especially on the weekend. Sorry! It'll take some time to unwind from all the wedding stress but at least you have a happy ending to all that stress...YOU ARE MARRIED! HORRAY! :)
Maggie: You are always my source of good advice! I know better than to defy your suggestions, I've learned the hard way. So tonight I drew the line (as you'll see in my most recent post) and I'm DONE micromanaging. On Weds if I feel this awful, they probably won't even do my danged surgery so I must rest and get stronger for it. That's what I'll do!
TurtleHeart: I can't believe you didn't go to the Witches' Ball! That, and DragonFest are YOUR THING! But it sounds like you had a lovely weekend anyway. And I always watch Cousin Vinnie when it's on! I'm impressed that you were able to describe her outfit so perfectly! LOL Looking forward to your etsy site (I was actually looking for your etsy site over the weekend cause I thought you already had one!).
Jim: Glad your allergies and seizures are better. Sounds like you got the whole house, inside and out, ready for the cold months! Feel free to come over and do our house...Honey's really not that into it lately! But please warn me before you come out here and start climbing all over our roof...I'd like to know to expect that you're up there!
Tracy: YAY! You're all moved in! Then I forgive you for missing our outing to the Bark Park. Now just get unpacked, settled in and we'll PARTAY at your house! Where's the hot tub?!
Love you friends!
Abbey,
When you can and are able to - you can put your garden to sleep for the winter by just tearing out the plants and rotting veggies and throwing them in your compost heap, or in the trash. You don't need to do another single thing to end the season.
I attended a graduation party for a friend who just received her masters degree in Italian while living in Italy. We celebrated with caprese, bruschetta, lasagna, salad, bread and tiramisu (do you see a theme here???) We drank a bit of wine and played Catch Phrase which was a hoot. If you don't have the game, you must get it. It reminded me of all the nights I played Trivial Pursuit with your mom and the group at Bethesda all those years ago. She was a rock star with Trivial Pursuit and I know you already know that Ms Abbey!
I'm thinking of you this week and wishing the best for your amazingly strong and killer treatment which will knock those cancer cells on their keisters!
Love and prayers,
Nancy
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